Thursday, August 5, 2010

Black Day


Dearest blog friends, I have to share the deep sadness that has happened in my life. One of my sweet fur babies, Gypsy, was hit and killed by a car yesterday morning. I know that is a risk you take when you allow your pets to go outside, but honestly we live on a street that runs into a dead end street, and there's an elementary school on the corner. As a rule, people drive slowly and cautiously through our area. It was a fear, but I just never thought it would happen, so far from any real traffic.

I was going about my usual morning routine yesterday, when I looked out the big window in our living room. There she was, sprawled out in the road in an unnatural way, all of 6 feet from our front yard. I looked around the house in a panic, hoping it wasn't her, praying that she was really just taking a kitty nap in the other room. I ran outside, recognizing her pretty fur and long body before I got up to her. The next part is so awful, that I've been haunted by it since I saw it. My poor, innocent baby had her head completely destroyed. I wanted to believe she'd still be breathing and not too bad off, or that she'd look like she was resting peacefully. The only comfort is knowing that she went instantly from a blow like that, and didn't suffer. I just sat on the curb and cried.

I know that many of you have lost dear pets, it's part of having them in your life and loving them. It's just devastating, especially to not get to say goodbye. I feel that I was responsible for her safety and well being, and I didn't protect her. She died so violently, that car didn't care how sweet or precious she'd been to me and my boyfriend. She was just taken from us. Life is truly so fragile. She was only in our lives for 15 months, we raised her from a kitten, and we are thankful just to have had her for that short time. Rest in peace little Gypsy, I will never forget you.


Here she is with one of our other cats, Mr. Meow, they spent every second together.



As a kitten, this is a pic from when I had the blog contest to name her. Some of you may remember that.

I'm going to make a special altar space for Gypsy, and I'm going to paint her a Day of the Dead piece. I have to accept that death is part of life, and I will celebrate her sweet spirit. I'll share my painted altar piece with you when it's done.

16 comments:

Brian said...

Leila I am so sorry! I know how it is when loosing an animal! We lost one of our weiner dogs 3 years ago to cancer.....we had her for close to 10 years before she passed away. The kids still bring up Shnaaps alot.

Wendy said...

Oh Leila, I cried as I read this. I have two fur babies, and if one of them were killed, I would be in such a grief/depression. I am so sorry and nothing anyone can say can take away the pain. I let my babies out 15 mins. every morning and I know there's always that chance. I'm going to think twice about this. May the angels of peace, faith and comfort bless you and the rest of your clan. Again, I am so sorry.

Becky Farley said...

Oh Leila, I'm so sorry! I can't imagine! Tearing up at work reading this! Poor baby cat! I know that Mickey (my pup) is my heart and I would just have a huge whole in my heart if anything happen to him! I am so so sorry.

RubySkeleton said...

;-(
I am very very sorry about your loss! Like all my animals, I look at them as my children & most people could care less about animals. But what if it were one of their children that got hit by a car & the driver kept going? It would be a totally different story. I hate to hear the way you found her. I hope you find peace in your terrible loss!

chandlerguera said...

I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your kitty. When I had to put mine to sleep years ago, this story about the Rainbow Bridge gave me comfort. xx
http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm

PovertyJane said...

my dear friend, Im so utterly sorry for your loss. I too, have lost a wonderful kitty (wonderboy) to the road. As I read your story I was reminded of that exact instance when I found our kitty, lying in the road, praying from a distant glance, it wasn't him. But Im a firm believer that cats are meant to hunt and be outside. Your right its a risk, but for me, an indoor cat is as unnatural as a caged bird. The risk, for us, is worth the beauty of our kitties freedom outdoors, pouncing butterflies,napping in the veggie garden and coming indoors when the rain comes. My heart is with you my dearest!

Pili said...

Oi Leia, I'm so sorry!
Losing a pet is always hard, but in such a way is worse!
Don't blame yourself, you loved her and cared for her and made her life truly amazing, I'm sure!
Remembering her and appreciating life more because of it seems like the right thing to do.
*hugs*

Nydia said...

Again, so so sorry, Leila! It's never easy to deal with death, specially of such a sweet little kitty. As I said before, at least she was deeply loved by you both while here. Time helps healing... It's a beautiful and necessary idea to keep a sacred space for her at your home. Not only to mourn her, but to honor and understand that, sad as it is, this is part of the cycle of life.


Be well, sweetie!

Kisses and loving hugs from us.

Mother's Moon's Message said...

I am so sorry for your loss.. and even more that you had to find her in the state she was in. She looks so like my sweetie. The bond with a pet can be so strong. blessings

giddy99 said...

I am so so sorry to hear about the tragic loss of your baby. I lost my beloved Butch (only 8.5 years old!) in Dec 2009, to an illness that the vet couldn't identify until it was too late to do anything about. I still cry when I think of him, and I'm crying because I know how much you hurt. :(

erin said...

oh my god this breaks my heart. i'm so sorry to hear about this and i wish you never had to go through something so awful :(

Laura said...

i am so so sorry for your loss...
blessings
~*~

Lucy said...

truly heartbreaking. My husband and I had to make the devastating decision to put our dog to sleep last month. He was suffering from terminal kidney failure. We both cried and felt terrible. Pets really are family members. Ours are just like our children. Thinking of you
xxxxx

Mrs. Evils said...

Leila,I'm so sorry for your loss. It breaks my heart and I wish I could give you a hug.

Nacreous Alchemy said...

Leila, I'm terribly behind in reading blogs and just saw this post. I’m so sorry for your loss. It's difficult enough letting go of a pet when it's their time but to have them taken before that is just devastating. She was a beautiful cat and it's obvious that in those 15 months she was greatly loved.

PaperCameraScissor said...

So sorry to hear this! ((HUGS))

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